Amy Winehouse photographed in London in 2004

     Today the person I was “seeing” basically ended things with me because I’m not an overtly emotional person anymore. I’ve known the person for two years and I’ve never been emotional with them. It’s just not who I am anymore. I’ll admit that it is a symptom of my last relationship and the way it ended. It isn’t, however, something that I do because I’m “jaded” because I’m not anymore. The person told me that I’m guarded and I am to a point, but it’s more than that. I’m logical now. I take my time. I think things through. I make informed decisions on the investment of my time.

     It will take me a long time to enter a serious relationship with another person. Even then I won’t be able to promise to be emotional at all times or really express how I’m feeling on a normal basis. My way of showing I care is my physically being there. By asking to be around the person. By inviting them places that mean a lot to me. I tried to explain that side, but was tired of having to explain my “lack of emotions” when I was just being myself. I let the person know that this is who I am and they should know what they’re getting into by knowing me. I would understand regardless and I do. I’m not an easy person to care for.

They chose the way out and that’s okay. I’m still patiently waiting for someone to be able to accept my personality as is. 

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August Alsina sucks. He really, really is bad. He can sing, but his songs are terrible.

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I literally woke up like this. Looking and feeling rough this morning. I walked outside to walk my dog and had to come back to put on this beanie because I’m so cold in New York now it’s ridic.

I think I’m at the beginning stages of being an alcoholic. No joke.

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Anonymous asked: What's your favorite thing to do on a Thursday night?

No Thursday night is the same for me, but this summer I’ve done a lot of drinking on Thursdays. More than in my whole college career.

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Anonymous asked: Any advice for a young woman moving out on their own? I'm going to be living with my bf in BK and am somewhat nervous about crashing, failing & having to go back home. Any advice? Also I'm from Brooklyn but can't figure out which neighborhood I'd like to go to or if I should try another boro for lower rent. Also, you're great!

Hey darling, thanks!

I’m going to tell you from personal experience of moving out with someone and moving on into my own places with other roommates.

  • Have a large sum of money as a cushion. I mean serious savings before you even consider moving out. 
  • Budget well. You don’t need that pair of shoes and you can eat in every day and live.
  • Be kind to the person you’re living with. Live your own life. Have your own activities. So you both don’t get on each other’s nerves.
  • If you want lower rent specifically in Brooklyn you’re going to have to enter the “hood”. I found very decent prices in Bushwick. I mean super cheap. You can also check Canarsie, East New York, etc but be prepared for “not so good” areas. Whatever you do, don’t move to Brownsville.
  • If you’re going to another borough the Bronx is your best bet. South Bronx is being gentrified which is meh, but there is some cheap housing and easy access to Manhattan. You can literally walk over a bridge into Harlem. Also the deeper in the Bronx on the 2/5 line the better the area.
  • Don’t be afraid to go back home if all else fails. If you have open arms and doors waiting for you than utilize that. There’s nothing wrong with falling. It’s how we learn. 

Hope this helps!

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I have a few friendships that I apply the “if you have nothing good to say don’t say it” theory to. I think I need to apply it to more.

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Everyone says “Good morning” to you in East New York when you walk past them walking your dog. So, yeah it’s not the best area, but this is the first area out of all the ones I’ve lived in in New York where people do that.

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